I still can't get over the fact that the group of friends whom I once thought were trusting are actually not what I deem them to be. In fact, I think I was never regarded as one of their 'direct' friend, but their friend's girlfriend.

Truth be told, I hate it when people treat me as their friend's girlfriend, cousin's girlfriend or who's friend's friend when I treat them as my friend. Especially after so many years of knowing each other and after my repeated times of reminding them, it still does not work.

Friends who knew this group of people once told me that they can no longer click with them. Different frequency, different thinking, different ideas. They were once close, but now, they seldom chat on msn, much less meet up. I told them that not all of them are like this. They probably need to spend more time conversing with them to find out what are their thoughts. They might not be who they seem to be. I always persisted in that belief.

But this birthday, I was wrong. I was utterly disappointed. Very disappointed. None of them remembered me. And when some of them were reminded that it was my birthday, some wish, some did not wish, some didn't even bother. And for the don't know how many times, nobody called me when they gathered. Nobody bothered to ask about my existance. No one from that particular group cared. All that my other friends once told me about them seem to come true. That they probably only cared for themselves, for the fun and company. Taking everyone else for granted. I don't know what else I can say besides disappointed. That seems to be the only word I have to describe them now.

I know those in this group might be reading this now. You might disagree, you might boil. You might feel unfair for. But this is what I feel from the bottom of my heart. Who's right, who's wrong... only time will tell...