SHE.HER.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

I've taken a fancy to 3D cakes recently. Although they are costly, but it makes a difference to cake tasting altogether...

Saturday, September 15, 2007

飞轮海-《出神入化》完整MTV

王力宏庆功演唱会 in Taiwan, with special guest: Selina and Rainie Yang
(Can ignore the rest of the video after Rainie)

I still can't get over the fact that the group of friends whom I once thought were trusting are actually not what I deem them to be. In fact, I think I was never regarded as one of their 'direct' friend, but their friend's girlfriend.

Truth be told, I hate it when people treat me as their friend's girlfriend, cousin's girlfriend or who's friend's friend when I treat them as my friend. Especially after so many years of knowing each other and after my repeated times of reminding them, it still does not work.

Friends who knew this group of people once told me that they can no longer click with them. Different frequency, different thinking, different ideas. They were once close, but now, they seldom chat on msn, much less meet up. I told them that not all of them are like this. They probably need to spend more time conversing with them to find out what are their thoughts. They might not be who they seem to be. I always persisted in that belief.

But this birthday, I was wrong. I was utterly disappointed. Very disappointed. None of them remembered me. And when some of them were reminded that it was my birthday, some wish, some did not wish, some didn't even bother. And for the don't know how many times, nobody called me when they gathered. Nobody bothered to ask about my existance. No one from that particular group cared. All that my other friends once told me about them seem to come true. That they probably only cared for themselves, for the fun and company. Taking everyone else for granted. I don't know what else I can say besides disappointed. That seems to be the only word I have to describe them now.

I know those in this group might be reading this now. You might disagree, you might boil. You might feel unfair for. But this is what I feel from the bottom of my heart. Who's right, who's wrong... only time will tell...

Sunday, September 09, 2007

I realised that I have been grumbling and complaining alot recently. May be because I have high expectations. I don't know. But I feel that what I expect are merely just basic human principles, but yet, so many people cannot attain it.

I no longer have patience for such people.
I no longer want to be magnanimous and forgiving.
I no longer want to give in and be generous.

I know now, why some people chose to be selfish and only think for themselves. Because this is reality. In this world, this era, many people only think for themselves. If you always put others before you, you will suffer in the end, and ultimately, only you yourself will understand how terrible it feels.

Of course, you still have to be responsible and have intregrity. This is the basic. You are still answerable to yourself. As long as you can live up to your concious and hold your head high, you have my respect.

I feel enlightened.

This birthday, I learnt who my true friends are.

This birthday, I learnt more about myself.

This birthday, I realised I have been taken for granted by many people.

This birthday, I realised that my sisters are my best friends.

This birthday, I felt disappointed in him.

This birthday, I know for sure that I am not materialistic.

This birthday, I am not satisfied... in fact, it was one of my worst birthday...