If you asked me what I've been doing for the past one week after my return from Genting, I will tell you I've found a new boyband group- 棒棒堂 !

Manz! They are one talented group!

It all started from this show called 模范棒棒堂 founded by Taiwan's Channel V. Hosted by Fan Weiqi, she leads the show with 15-20 other boys aged from 14-24. These boys are selected out of thousands other applicants, due to their individual personalities and talents. From dancing, to singing, imitation, games, etc etc, they have it all. Have really earned my respect. They made me realised how timid and small the guys in Singapore are. They are willing to express their emotions on screen. We here do not even dare to cry in front of our friends. What's wrong? I concluded that it's due to culture difference, but I would say being yourself is always the most couragous thing to do. We always hide ourselves behind many masks. Even celebrities. Look at all our local celebrities. They are all so glamourous, so attractive and captivating, but that's about it. Nothing special, unique or distinguisable from the rest. Look at those overseas, or let's say the nearest, Taiwan's. Each of them carries their own character. No need for all to be glamourous and bright. They are them themselves and that's what makes them stand out and popular.

And the guys in the show need to be able to withstand fallbacks because they have segments where a member is eliminated from the show every quarter. Having to face the humiliation and critics from the public is already enough, and most of them are students, which makes it even more unbearable for their age. But all of them got through it. You've got my support guys! In fact, I think Singapore should buy this show and air it on our local television. A really inspirating story!

Oh well, let me share with you some of their acts before anything else! Enjoy!

HELP ME SOMEBODY!

I've been having severe headaches everyday since I recovered from my fever and flu. It's horrible! The feeling is intolerable! It's like something pounding the back of your head or somebody squeezing your brain for juice and more juice! Arrr....

Actually, I think the root of this problem might be due to stress. Not sure if it is, but everytime when I am stressed, these symtoms will start to appear. I recently watched a documentary on stress and symtoms are:

- Do you experience headache whenever your work is finishing or when you have nothing to do?
- Are you not able to focus every morning after you get up?
- Is your body aching?
- Are you losing your appetite?

The above are some symtoms only. And I've realised that I've got most of it. Moreover, I did visit a doctor once last time to diagnose these and he said it could be due to stress. And the next few times when I have these, I more or less know it's related to stress.

Actually, research says that stress is not just attainable when symtoms appear. It can also arise when there are no symtoms. Hence, all of us must occasionally let our hair down and play as hard as we work. Only you can cure your own stress.

For myself, I think the root of it comes from work. I was struggling to accept a lower paying job or wait for a higher prospect job. Interest VS Money. And guess what!? I even visited a fortune teller cos' of this! Haha... ok, my mum's idea. But well... there's always a first time! But I have to warn everyone that this kind of thing is can be believed but don't get hooked. It's not healthy.

Anyway, I finally decided to accept the lower paying job, but just the day before when I wanted to go sign the employment letter, they told me that they might need to reselect due to more applicants applying for this position. Manz! I felt so disgusted! I mean... what kind of professional ethics are you talking about here? So I've decided to reject this job regardless of the result. And true enough, my headache reduced. So I concluded that it's due to work. Oh well... there's always another door for me right? I just need to be patient. As they say, 'xiu xi shi wei le zou geng yuan de lu'. Oh well oh well, I'll just take this time to practice my driving and language. Been wanting to polish up on my Malay and Japanese. Guess this is the best time... jia you!!!

Same to all of you out there too! There is no dead end!

I'm in a dilemma now.

Actually, there is no need for me to be in a dilemma now when there's no offers yet. But... what if it happens? I need to forecast and plan ahead...

On my left is a job which I have strong interest in. But the pay is low, as low as what I used to received as a fresh graduate.

On my right is a job with good prospect and definitely a higher pay. But they will only let me know if there is a second interview at the end of the month of early next month. By then, the other company would have already told me if I'm selected for the job. And if I am, what should I do?

Making comparisons, I will choose the company that can offer me a better job prospect over the lower paid. But there are a few more interviews to go and is time consuming. Worst of all, what if I do not get the job? And I've rejected the other one? Gosh... what should I do? Can somebody direct me? Give me a signal? I need assistance!

Passion overrides money- but to what extent? If the pay offered is higher, I would have no qualms at all. But truth is, I still consider the $ factor. So what kind of person am I? What am I more inclined to?

Can you answer me?

Memories are everlasting... (and will remain in your heart forever...)

Memories are eternity... (even after you've passed on...)

Memories can never be forgotten... (unless you've lost your memory...)

Memories are sweet... (even if it used to be horrendous...)

Today marks my first day of holiday... NOT!

I had to go back to the office today to settle a staff clearance form which I was not inform of. And the best thing.. HR have not received my letter of resignation yet! That explains why I mentioned that the company is disorganized!

Anyway, I must say that leaving the com has its pros and cons. Pros because I am free- again! And can thus pursue what I want to really do... cons is because it's rather emotional leaving my group of buddies (you know who you are) and that I'm foregoing a high-paying position. Though it's not really that much, but for my age to earn $2k+ every month... and its basic salary, no commission involve... it's quite a sum.. but oh well, tt's it! Chapter close.

Let's welcome a brand new chapter...

I'm actually waiting for this particular company to shortlist me for an interview. It said by this weekend.. hmm.. i wonder if they really will... the pay there is much lesser than what i've previously been offered, but as I've mentioned before, it's the passion that matters. Hence, if they really offer me the job, i'll accept it. Let's pray hard!!!

But before I close my chapter, here's something to share... i'm going to appear in Sentosa's new advertisement! Hahaha.... it was a very last min thing. They needed some girls to act as tourists at Underwater World. Hence, we were called to be extras. Haha..but it's really a small role... cos there was a main in front of us. So if it's really a fast shot, then pple might not even notice. Haha... still, it's interesting.. my third try at filming (tho the second attempt din appear on screen.. haha).. hopefully there's more to come...

*PS: This has really got me interested in acting... haha...