Tuesday, February 27, 2007
After 2 months of endurance, I'm finally putting it to a stop. I've tendered.
Lots of soul-searching was done over the past 2 months. I've questioned myself again and again to see if this is really what I want to do, what I enjoy, what is good for me in future. Unfortunately, the answer is no. I am too coped up on this island. I need fresh air. I need the city. I need freedom and passion and the drive. All of which is lacking on the island. I've decided to pursue my dreams and follow my heart. Thus, my decision.
So what's on for me for the next 2-3 weeks before I get a new job... holiday!
I want to go to Taiwan or Australia. But unfortunately, money is the BIG problem. I need to take extra care in spending cos' being jobless for a month can be killing. Moreover, I've got cash committments. Hopefully, I'll be able to get a job soon. A job which interests me and which is suitable for me. In fact, not only the job, but both the company's culture and management style as well. Pray hard.... !!!
So I guess it's probably Genting or a cruise for me.. but thing is.. my bf can't get leave next week! Have to see if he can get for the 3rd week le...
'If you don't take risks, you will never get to taste the sweetness of success."
Sunday, February 11, 2007
We finally held our stayover!
Only that it was not at somebody's house... haha... cos' initially we wanted to bulk at someone's place... save money... but decided on a hotel instead. Easier... can mess up the place without having to bother much! Hooray!
It was great fun! We took so many photos. Near to 400 over just a night. Can you imagine! But I guess half the pictures were all either candid or posed shots. And when I mention posed shots, it's not those that are just staring at the camera lens and smile, but with actions. Really hilarious! Those who didn't sleep actually pretended to be bulgars trying to steal our bags. Haha...
I dozed off at 5+.. could not withstand it any longer. We were chit-chatting and as usual, I was busy changing my sitting positions to keep myself awake. But I happily went into dreamland after several struggles. Haha.. the girls had a hard time calling us up the next day. They tried various methods... such as trying to set the wake-up call.. playing sounds that sounded like those from toy guns etc etc. It succeeded after don't know how many sounds though.. haha... only 4 hours of sleep since 5am till now.. better sleep earlier tonight!
We had a surprise birthday celebration for a March baby, and belated for 3 others. It was really hard to suppress the surprise and suspense as we literally brought the cake into the room, but thankfully they were not that observant. Haha... Ultimately, our motive for this celebration is to make them all happy. This is what I want to do for my friends to make them happy. Even if it is only for a short period of time, it is worthwhile.
We played Cluedo too... a boardgame which I have not played for many years, and which I have completely forgotten how to play. Haha...
All in all, it was fruitful and enjoyable.
Our next plan: An overseas trip together!
Thursday, February 08, 2007
"I can never stick to anything."
"I know I should focus on one thing, but which one?"
"I lose interest in things I thought would interest me forever."
"I keep going off on another tangent."
"I get bored as soon as I know how to do something."
"I can't stand to do anything twice."
"I keep changing my mind about what I want to do and end up doing nothing."
"I work at low-paying jobs because there's nothing I'm willing to commit to."
"I won't choose a career path because it might be the wrong one."
"I think everyone's put on this earth to do something; everyone but me, that is."
"I can't pay attention unless I'm doing many things at once."
"I pull away from what I'm doing because I'm afraid I'll miss someting better."
"I'm too busy, but when I do find time I can't remember what I wanted to do."
"I'll never be an expert in anything. I feel like I'm always in a survey class."
If you ever said these things to yourself, chances are you're a scanner- a very special type of thinker. Instead of being wired to only one interest, you're attracted to many others. Because of your diversed interests, you might have be called indecisive, or even been taught that you're doing something wrong and that you must try to change. But you've been misdiagnosed. You're a different creature altogether.
What you've assumed is a disability to be overcome by sheer will is actually an exceptional gift. You are the owner of a remarkable, multitalented brain trying to do its work in a world that doesn't understand who you are and doesn't know why you behave as you do.
Extracted from 'Refuse to Choose- By Barbara Sher"
You should break the norm. You need to break the norm. You must break the norm.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
I have been quite disturbed by the death of a Taiwanese idol actress recently- Xu Wei Lun
I believe many others are too, at least some of my friends and sister are.
Life is so fragile, so vulnerable, so weak. Many people come and go at anytime, anyplace. But why is it that we're so shaken and affected by her death?
I told my friend: "Probably because she is an idol actress, young and pretty, therefore, in our eyes, we take it for granted that she will never die, or at least not for now, not at such a young age."
Of course, saying that she will never die is rather exaggerating. But we must admit that we take young lives for granted. We never expect their lives to end so early.
So the saying goes: When you learn how to die, you learn how to live. I finally clearly understood this meaning. Are you doing what you're loving and enjoying now? Are you happy? Will you die without regrets? Have you made accomplishments that have satisfied you?
I met up with a poly friend whom I have not met for half a year already 2 days ago. She asked me: Have you ever wondered what you want to carve on your tombstone?
Hmmm...
I have yet to come up with the answer, but the moral of the story is- why wait till when 'the thing' has happened then fred? Why not do something about it when you have the ability to? I totally agree.
Up to today, 5 days after her death, I still cannot believe that she has left the world. It's just so unbelievable...
I want to take this opportunity to tell all my friends and loved ones that I love all of you, that regardless of what happens, all of you will always be in my heart...
Extracted from Rainie Yang Cheng Lin's Blog:
我們每天都在學習.都在成長....
這次瑋倫的事情.也讓我學習到許多許多...
只是...
付出的代價.未免太大了!!!
我不想失去她.真的不想...
上次吃飯還說好下次該她請客...
怎麼...就沒有下次了!!!
瑋倫離開了我們...
有太多的不捨...
太多的想念...
她的離開...
讓我知道自己該學著堅強...
我盡量...
但是...真的好難!!!
到現在.我還是覺得這是個玩笑.是一場惡作劇...
總覺得她沒有離開過...
呵...人最會自己騙自己了!!!
雖然傷痛...
但還是要面對~~~
所以...
我尊重瑋倫的決定...
身為好朋友.我更應該支持她!!!
老婆...
希望你在另一個世界能夠快樂...
也許...
時間會沖淡我們的傷痛...
但...
我們不會因為時間而把你忘記...
瑋倫.一路好走~~~
下輩子.還是要當姊妹喔!!!
