I am currently, seriously, contemplating, if I should apply for a SPH scholarship in Journalism.

1) Do I really like the job scope of a journalist?
2) Am I into current affairs?
3) Is my grasp of the English language strong enough?
4) How am I going to support my house loan if I take up and am accepted for this scholarship?
5) Do I want to be bonded for 4 years?

I kept asking myself these questions. Whether I should or should not. Like what shakespeare said: To be or not to be. That is a question.

I sought advise from a couple of people. Encouragement was what I got. Some even said I have the kind of look and personality of a journalist. Hey! Is that a compliment or an insult? But looking at the fact that I do enjoy reading, writing, and the media. It is really worth thinking... any advice?

On the other hand, I am also looking at whether I should apply for a SIA scholarship. Of course it's not being an air stewardess but more administrative, either dealing with Marketing or Business Development. I have a keen interest in travelling, but since my preference is not with flying onboard, I am considering a second option.

Options there are.. bringing me to think if I should continue with application for a part time course for A. Marketing and Management OR B. Marketing & Advertising. See! Contradicting right? Diverse interests. That's the problem! We want alot, but are we able to shoulder the responsibility? I am totally confused. Confused with what I should decide on, uncertain about my future if I chose this option over the over, and if I will 'live happily ever after'... with satisfaction, with peace, and without regrets...

"Are you happy?"