My boss tried to retain me. Even tried to 'threaten' me, saying that if I leave the company, it's meaningless for her to continue. She will just close the company. And you know what is the best thing?

Cos' I told her that I need to apply for financial assistance for my house loan and my sisters' education next year. Thus, I went to find the minister for help, which he then said that it's tough for them to help us due to my current financial situation. I sort of borrowed the minister's name. I know this is not right but I have no choice. You know, I do not want to sour my relationship with my boss and she is pitiful enough. If I tell her straight the reason why I want to leave, she will surely breakdown and probably just commit suicide. Not exaggerating but this is a high possibility.

We had a long talk over the phone about this which she insists that this is not the right way out etc etc... finally ending with her writing to the minister again to promise that I'll get my pay and cpf on time. But regardless of what, I shall still resign. My decision is final.

I'm so tired. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing the right thing. Cos' no matter what I do, someone will always get hurt. And more importantly, the pressure I have to go through. I cannot take it already. I need a breather! Someone bring me overseas! Haii...